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Three Steps Back

by Costly Freefall

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1.
Though I haven't seen or held you, my darling For seven days now, I still feel you here I haven't seen your face since you left me For the better I--, will not forget I never said "I love you" just to elicit your response But now my ears ring for averted eyes Your averted eyes It's easy to forget what you've taken When placed out of sight, buried 'neath the dirt But I can't help remember that plot of loosened soil Where you lie now, forever seeking rest Now I long for a time, much much later than now Where I can smile, and remember all Not just the bad, but too the good But i won't fill this void with an emptiness of a different ilk or shade I'll just wait to cease to be afraid
2.
Oh, If I hadn't thought to bring my heart to you Gray skies could share with blue What's lost cannot be found In the same book, we're stuck on different pages I've been reading it for ages I think I'll put it down And though it hurts to close my eyes This selfish sacrifice Heals me slowly And though it hurts to fantasize What we could have made of our lives Had we only... What could I be? Other than lonely, With you? Only with you. I wish I'd known a better way to make mistakes Because the path that pushed me to you, left me broken and afraid I never should have second guessed how literal, this fatal flaw I've grown to always view myself as second-best But half-step above the rest Self-defeating egotist Makes it hard to believe there's something better That won't leave me playing debtor Trembling below the wrist And though it hurts to close my eyes This selfish sacrifice Heals me slowly And though it hurts to fantasize What we could have made of our lives Had we only... What could I be? Other than lonely, With you? Only with you. I wish I'd known a better way to make mistakes Because the path that pushed me to you, left me broken and afraid I never should have second guessed how literal, this fatal flaw
3.
With neither god nor demon to keep me here It makes it a little harder to sleep Although it can't be said I'll "wait in fear" I'll stay here (mostly alone) aware that I never could Ever hold you the way that he would (if not for me) Being held, held by you I should have seen this coming, but the falsehood felt so true The best of times have given way to worst It seems only right to me, those highs beget this low With only hope that I, am broken for the better Uncomfortably numb shall I, abandon, destroy, repeat (and then rebuild) Until I'm a little more sturdy God, please grant me another day to read between the lies These anguished nights have left me tired, and the lines seem gaussian now As I turn away from you, the vice on my chest clamps down But only for now I've heard that worry is a waste of imagination But there's nothing else in my mind Except scenarios that leave me wanting For a reality that isn't based in a dream For just one day with you extending past a single scene (left obscured) From all but me God, please grant me another day to read between the lies These anguished nights have left me tired, and the lines seem gaussian now As I turn away from you, the vice on my chest clamps down But only for now
4.
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I really haven't thought of you for weeks and years and days And I hope that it's been the same for you For life feels so much simpler now without you at my side My thoughts (alone) are left for loftier things I'll take the blame of our dissensions If it brings your stormy heart to shore So flee the sea, abandon apprehension Return to the home you knew before But as for me, I'll leave this pier so you can dock in peace Square one is not life's worst place to start But keep in mind that I am gone and never coming back No matter that you have my heart with you

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Birthday demos 2016
For Mom.

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released July 18, 2016

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